Today, my pregnancy ended. I had what the receptionists like to call a procedure. Official diagnosis is missed miscarriage, not a blighted ovum.
My care was excellent, professional, gentle. It’s always good to be treated with dignity, of course, but it was especially welcome today when I was feeling vulnerable in every way. I am home, in bed. My mom and husband have taken over all the household and kid duty so I can be as lazy and useless as possible. Yay for sloth.
I want to thank all of you who left words of comfort and encouragement over the past couple of weeks. You have no idea how much it means. It is hard to type these feelings into the void, never knowing who cares and who doesn’t. Once again, vulnerability.
Rest up Gretchen, in your physical body and your soul too. Praying for you.
Oh, I ache for you. I wish I could be there to help in some way. Just know that you are on my mind. You are so precious.
Steph
Rest up, sweetie. My heart breaks for you!
Been there. My heart breaks with you. Prayers and God’s abundant blessing and peace to you.
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Hey, mama. Just wanted to say I have been thinking of you lots in the past few days. I don’t comment a lot because I don’t know how appropriate it is since I don’t really “know” you, but you are definitely in my prayers. Thank you for sharing such a heartbreaking season of life in such a transparent way.
I’m so glad you have good help right now so you can rest and hopefully recover in all ways. I’m sorry for your loss.
Holding you up in prayer.
I know what you mean about that word, “procedure”. I hope you heal quickly, physically and emotionally. I have been thinking about you and praying for you.
This may not be the time to ask, but have you talked to your dr. about being tested for clotting disorders or immune system/antibody issues? Some women have these problems and they cause multiple miscarriages, but are very treatable if you know they exist.
We aren’t called to be still for nothing. Sending you lots of love.
When I had that procedure there was a nurse who held my hand and told me she’d had the same experience a few months earlier. The last thing I remember before going under were the tears sliding down her cheeks. I felt comforted. If we have to go through these things, I am grateful for other women’s hands to hold, literally and figuratively.
I was thinking of you all day. I’m glad you’re resting, and that your mom and hubby are taking good care of everything.
I’m so glad you received compassion and were treated with care. It definitely makes a huge difference. Wish I could bring over a huge pot of…something comforting. Many (((HUGS)))
Take care of yourself, Mopsy.
I’m so, so sorry. 🙁
Adding my hugs and prayers for your healing in every aspect. I wish there was more I could do for you.
Rest, my friend. I am so sorry for your loss, and am praying that you will be comforted and strengthened as you press close to God. Even when I can’t find the words to pray about my broken heart, it helps to know that sitting quietly in God’s presence, I am heard and understood. Much love.
Pause. Rest. Reflect.
I am so sorry for your loss….I have been there too. Praying now for the raw spots in your heart. Peace and healing to you.
I hadn’t visited your site for a while, so this is the first time I read of your miscarriage. I am so very sorry for you.
mopsy, i have lurked for a while – friend of rach – but have been aching for you with this recent news. leaving a comment seems like such little comfort, but wanted you to know that folks are out here, taking this news to our Father, knowing and trusting that His comfort is perfect. May His grace be especially abundant to you and your husband right now.
I am so sorry for your heartache. May your mind and body heal soon. I know another little piece of your heart was left behind today.
In my head, I’m bringing you a casserole and folding your towels. Wish I could do it for real.
Rest is good. So is letting others care for you. Here’s to receiving the comfort and restoration you need.
i’m so very sorry for your loss 🙁
Nell
I’m so sorry. I’m really late with this, because today is my first chance to check blogs in weeks now, so I’m sorry for being late about it too.
May you enjoy lots of rest and God’s healing, both within and without. I’ll be praying for you.
You are in my prayers Gretchen – thank you for sharing your feelings…
I think God weeps with us as we stumble through grief and anger and longing. and regret. Every day is part of this quilt which each life represents–dark and light.
Blessings!
Many precious hugs my dear, dear friend. I’m so sorry. It’s always okay to show your vulnerability. If our roles were reversed, I know how much you’d be supporting and offering to me. I’m here for absolutely anything you need… anything. Love you.
I am so so sorry. Thinking of you
I know that vulnerable feeling. Bless your heart.
Oh Mopsy, Hugs here for you. Been there, done that–it is so hard….