We will meet. Our eyes will lock. It is inevitable.
Whether in the delivery room in September or someday in Heaven, I will know you and I will love you, always and forever. I already do.
The fastest known knee-buckler in the universe is a positive pregnancy test. Whether the news is greeted with joy or panic, the effect is the same. Weakness. Wonder. Tears. Fears. I think this time I said “oh, my.” My what?
My God! My heart! My history. My family. My, I’ve made myself vulnerable again to the scorching pain of loss. My, I’m ridiculously blessed.
I found out on Ryley’s birthday, January 22nd and we have kept it a secret since. Last time, I told everyone immediately, figuring their support and prayers would make the difference in the health of my baby and my sanity. It didn’t, of course, but it was nice to know so many people were in our corner praying for us and cheering us through a scary and ultimately sad time.
This time it has been a secret, sometimes heavy, sometimes as light as light. Not everyone is supportive or kind about the choices hubby and I have made regarding the size of our family. I knew the last thing I would need is disapproval or negativity. I wanted to get through the first weeks when every little twinge, pinch, cramp, gag, is more distracting than a rogue elephant. I wanted to get through the first weeks carrying around a precious secret. The world would be unable to intrude if I kept my mouth shut. So we did. It’s nothing personal, it was just between me, my husband, and God. Oh wait, that is personal…Â
Pregnancy knocks us to our knees, either in awe and gratitude or in wild helplessness. What we do while we are down there contemplating two pinks lines sets the tone for nine months. My tone is “oh, my.”
I think that’s what I will say when our eyes lock.
What wonderful news! May the Lord fill you with His peace for this pregnancy!
I am just thrilled for you and your family. This was a beautifully written Gretchen. You’ve topped yourself again.
Oh, my!!!!
I’m so very, very happy for you.
Wren
Here’s to a happy and healthy pregnancy and baby!
Congratulations my dear friend! I just shed some joyful tears. 🙂
I’m just so, so, so happy for you!
Oh my, indeed! Wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy, friend.
I’m so happy for you Gretchen! My prayers are with you now and throughout this pregnancy.
Oh my! Oh my! I’m sooooo happy for you! What a wonderful gift! Please keep us posted. This is such fabulous news!
Congratulations! You didn’t say anything when you stopped by my pregnant post!!!
Our babies will be close together!
And I’ll be praying for you!
Congratulations! Such exciting, awe-striking news!
Congratulations on the baby & the keeping the secret. In the past few months did anyone ask if you were pregnant? Seems that happened the few times hubby & I tried to wait. One time was w/in a week of us finding out.
BTW, lovely writing. 🙂
I was so happy to read this here. Lots of prayers, and congratulations! I love that you can feel the love you have for your babies in every word you write about them. Best wishes!!
Oh my, oh my, oh my! How wonderful!
That’s wonderful, adding both you and Bethany to my prayer journal right now!
Just had to add my congrats!
I cannot congratulate you enough. I’m so happy for you. I got cold shivers running through me, reading this. Congratulations!
Gretchen I had to come out of lurkdom to say how beautiful that post was–how true, how eloquent, how touching. Touching, right down in the deepest part of my mama-heart.
I am so beyond happy for you.
I knew it I knew it I knew it!!!!!!!!!!!
Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!
congratulations! Yippee!!!!!!! More fun! More blogs!
Happy, happy, happy!!
What WONDERFUL news! I’m so happy for you! Praying you have a H&H 9 mo!
Oh Gretchen, CONGRATULATIONS! I am so happy and excited for you. Praying that you have a healthy nine months. (Doing a little happy dance for you in my chair.)
Way back when, you wrote a gorgeous post announcing your 6th pregnancy – something about 60 fingers and 60 toes, etc, etc. I often think of that post and smile. I pray that you will get to hold the sixth pair of hands this time around.
Congratulations! I am so glad the reason you were being quiet is because you had something good to hide, rather than bad. I was a bit worried. What wonderful news, and I pray that this pregnancy will be super blessed for you, with of course the best blessing coming at the end!
by the way, I understand how hard it is to share when you can expect negative comments, but please know that you have a lot of supporters out here on the ‘net!
what a beautiful entry…..congrats!
Congratulations! Lord, please bless this family and this new little baby.
The minute I started reading I sent up a heartfelt prayer for you to have a happy healthy pregnancy and baby. I have read with tears through your posts of losses and know how much this means to you. Praying for you!
I am just beyond thrilled for you!! How blessed you are, and how blessed this baby is to be joining such an amazing family. Congratulations – sending my prayers and best wishes for a wonderful pregnancy with a most joyous outcome!
So excited for you guys! My boys will now have a little cousin to play with! Yeah! Our prayers are with you!
God bless you, Mopsy. Congratulations!
My cousin named her ninth Nina. 🙂
I’m so very happy for you!
Gretch…Oh! I am smiling so big for you right now. I’m glad I decided to check-in to blogland today. I think of you lots. Prayers for health and an abundance of joy!
THANK YOU to everyone for your well wishes and prayers!
Someone asked if I had been asked if I was pregnant—no. I haven’t worn maternity clothes until the last few days. I’ve been good at hiding my little bump. I probably just look a little chubby around the middle now.
I plan to write a follow-up post where I give the scoop on details.
Again, thanks to every one of you who took the time to jump up and down and squeal with me.
Oh YOU! Congrats to you! 🙂
That is SO EXCITING! Oh, I wish I were already pregnant again so we could compare notes (but it will be a few months still, if all goes as planned, and you know how that can go). I am truly thrilled for you and your family. I can just envision all your little ones crowded around that new baby, all those sparkling eyes and wide rosy smiles, that comfortable chaos. Blessed baby, blessed you. (And dare I say it? I’m hoping for a little sis for A.)
I am so very happy for you and your family! Congratulations!
Can’t wait for a more in-depth post when you’re feeling up to it. I’ve been thinking about you this weekend.
CONGRATULATIONS Gretchen!!!! I’m so happy for you and your family! Wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy.
Oh happy day! I am so thrilled for you, Gretchen! I had worried and prayed that the fear and pain you experienced did not leave you open to more children.