“It’s fun being a girl,” my obstetrician said as she handed a peach-colored tissue to me.
I nodded and snorted and hoped all my teary blinking was repelling the mascara from my eyes. A minute earlier, I hadn’t been crying.
I heard Mr. Baby’s heartbeat gallumping in the high 150s. Blood pressure was excellent at 106/54. Weight gain: Yes. Oh, yes. Passed my glucose screen at the last appointment with flying rainbow sparkly colors.
Before my appointment, I had an ultrasound which showed decent fluid and a balled-up baby, sitting breech at the moment. All the news points to a healthy little guy in there. He is measuring 1 week, 4 days ahead.
But I can’t shake the worry. It’s a battle I struggle with on a daily basis. When the OB breezily suggested I could wait four weeks until my next appointment, I fell apart. A different OB, who I had seen at my previous appointment, said I’d start coming every two weeks. I was counting on that. I need to check in on Mr. Baby in an official capacity. Two weeks felt reasonable. Four felt like prison sentence.
So I cried, which surprised me. It surprises me that it surprised me.
It’s fun being a girl, she said.
Oh I am so glad it is going well with your little guy and so understand your anxiety. What mother wouldn’t… Hang in there. Lots of love.
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I hope you explained, and were able to get an appointment in 2 weeks. Better safe than sorry, and better reassured than worried. How’s that name-choosing going? LOL
Anxiety makes you play funny games with yourself…I would either avoid ALL OUT ever going, or want to go as often as possible.
Hang in there.
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Oh, I am so glad all is well. And I understand.
Steph
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I certainly know how you feel. Even close to the end, I was still sometimes worried that something was going to happen to him. Those pregnancy hormones can be a doozy. Praying for you.
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So glad to hear the little man is looking healthy and strong. Praying that you will have peace…
Yea for good sounds and signs. I understand the worry. It only increases with each pregnancy, yes? I always felt as though I was pushing my luck, yet here I am with six healthy children. My doctor told me I could have 4 or 5 more while sewing me back up after my c-section. I told him I didn’t think I could handle the anxiety (for baby and myself).
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This made me smile and feel a burden for you at the same time.
It sounds like you have a wonderful OB, Gretchen. I pray the next few weeks FLY by with peace unexplainable.
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It’s fun being a pregnant girl too! All those crazy hormones.
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wow! Can I just say that your blood pressure is aMAzing? You didn’t say if you wound up with a 2 week appt or not…I hope you did, because I so understand the worry and the need.
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It IS fun being a girl, and sometimes funny too. And because I’m a girl, I’m sending lots of love to you.
So are they letting you come back in 2 weeks? I think I would push for it. It isn’t an unreasonable request. Love to you.
I’m catching up with blogs I used to love and read often, and yours was on the list. Reading it, I remember why! Congrats on your pregnancy.
P.S. It IS fun being a girl. Most of the time…
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